The Finch Formerly Known As Gold

27 December 2002

Something blue

The next office over has a couple of Authentic Beauties. I, of course, strive to avoid them, simply as a matter of maintaining equilibrium; I'll toss out an occasional flip remark, but it never goes beyond that.

Yesterday, one of them (the younger) was sporting an engagement ring. "It's about time," I said. Certainly she thought so; they'd been dating seemingly forever.

And for some reason, this stung me, and I can't come up with any justification for it. I'd never even considered her as a potential companion she's gorgeous, and she's fairly bright, but she's half my age (more or less literally) and we wouldn't have a whole lot to talk about so it shouldn't matter if she goes into the Permanently Unavailable file. Yet somehow I mourn, even as I wish her great heaping gobs of happiness, and I mutter deep, dark curses against the person who causes me all this heartbreak.

Which is, of course, myself.

(10:20 am: Modified slightly to increase vagueness.)

Posted at 9:11 AM to Table for One


Amen, brother...though we know they are Not For Us and Never To Be, be it for reasons legal, moral, or aesthetic, it still tweaks and burns just a bit.

Posted by: DavidMSC at 11:50 AM on 27 December 2002

Fiddler on the Roof was on TCM the other day, and when they started singing "Matchmaker, matchmaker, make me a match," it was all I could do to avoid throwing things at my TV set.

If I'm distraught enough to try to kill a Sony Wega, I've got issues. :)

Posted by: CGHill at 4:56 PM on 27 December 2002

Yep, this getting older stuff just plain sucks!

Posted by: Marc at 5:20 PM on 27 December 2002

I caught some of Fiddler too -- first time in many years. Topol's voice never ceases to thrill me. My personal connection to Fiddler: playing the title role in the 7th grade production...because I was the smallest one in my class and could stand on the flimsy ladder behind the "roof." Oy vey.

Posted by: DavidMSC at 6:21 PM on 27 December 2002